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[12 Jul 2006|01:44pm] |
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so......
i met a girl at school today and i think i might like her.
awesome.
bus bus bus
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[07 Jul 2006|03:08pm] |
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y do i like ppl even though they are complete assholes and i cant stand them?(which doesnt really make sense)
i love her, but at the same time i hate her
im fucked up in the head
she wasnt always like this, but maybe the only reason i still feel that way towards her is because i never felt that way towards anyone else.
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[22 Jun 2006|07:10pm] |
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i think im gonna tell her 2morrow
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[18 Jun 2006|12:35pm] |
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jeez.
i've been such an asshole 2 everyone 2day.
it's probably because of the rain.
sorry guys.
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[15 Jun 2006|08:06pm] |
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everythings goin 2 hell.
summer school starts monday and im gonna have 2 take 3 buses 2 get there.
i cant say what i want to say.
why is it so hard?
its not fair.
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[10 Jun 2006|06:05pm] |
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lock-in in 2 weeks!!!!!!
all i gotta do is make sure i dont blow up in ne1's face till then.'
i cant wait.
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[08 Jun 2006|12:11pm] |
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all half days this week cuz of exams.
my mom jacked my ipod.
i hope i can go to the lock in friday.
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[05 Jun 2006|03:54pm] |
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l'arc en ciel- shi no hai |
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today went by really fast.
caige was being really annoying 2day and i had fun talking 2 sylvia.
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[03 Jun 2006|03:19pm] |
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i wish i could go to the arcade, but i cant cuz im grounded.
i wish i had someone i could talk to.
there's a girl i like at school, but im not sure if im ready for a girlfriend. i just dont think i could be close to anyone. ive never had close friends, or close family.
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[31 May 2006|08:36pm] |
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l'arc en ciel-forbidden lover |
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today was lame.
i had 2 mow the lawn, but my mom let me on the comp afterwards so it was alright.
i talked 2 sylvia on aim 4 a while, but i got bored of talkin 2 her so i said i was goin 2 bed but i wasnt.(sorry)
i hate guilt. its the worst feeling in the world.
i wish i could just leave. for good. and never come back.
wouldnt that be nice
probably another sleepless night. im so tired i havent slept in 3 days. i try to sleep, but my mind is too busy. maybe ill ask my mom 4 sleeping pills, but those never seem to help neways.
i wish i could speak my mind. its easy to write in a journal. but i cant say it out loud. maybe im just afraid.
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[29 May 2006|09:49am] |
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the morning of day 3
ill probably have 2 go home soon
i hope my parents let me do something with sylvia 2day
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[29 May 2006|12:31am] |
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l'arc en ciel- ophelia |
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who are you
get out of my head
you're always there
even when im asleep
back off
you'll drive me to my grave
well, maybe then i can at least get some rest hmmm
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[28 May 2006|11:59pm] |
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im so sleepy
i think ill go to bed
i feel like shit
im such an asshole to people
just stop right now
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[28 May 2006|05:13pm] |
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dam you for signing off sylvia
im spending the night at mikes again
i miss everyone
kill me
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[28 May 2006|06:35am] |
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some one call me or talk 2 me on aim
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[27 May 2006|12:12am] |
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its been a while since my last post cuz ive been grounded.
im at mike's house now cuz my parents temporarily let me off grounding.
i would have done sumthin else but mike was the only person available, i would rather have gone to the arcade.
im such an idiot.
stop dreaming
nothing changes if nothing changes
i miss....
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[14 May 2006|07:52pm] |
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hey ppls. my parents locked me out of the computer so i can only get on wen i have homework.
i want to die.
right now.
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[10 May 2006|02:28pm] |
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its been a while since i last posted. my older sister doesn't let me cheat my grounding nemore. im depressed. i miss freedom. im getting bad grades.
dam
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[05 May 2006|03:03pm] |
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ok this sucks. im still grounded. my parents r assholes.
theres a girl i like at school, but we're friends so i cant ask her out. fuck.
oh well im failing patterns and progress reports came home 2day.
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[02 May 2006|03:08pm] |
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Placebo- you dont care about us |
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well, its been a while since my last post.
nuthin mutch new
my mom threatened to ground me for summer if i come home late again.
mysister is being a bitch, and midquarter report cards come back thursday or friday. i think my grades r fine, but i might be doing bad in english.. o well
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